I Don't Even Know What I'm Like Anymore (the last day of Summer)

 I don't even know if I am at an all time high or low

  or if I am happy or sad

  I don't even know what personality is

 or what I like to do or what I think about myself anymore

 I can't figure out why but people around me hate what I'm doing when I love it.

 I don't know if I am building myself up from nothing or breaking myself down from everything

 I find myself to be the most boring human yet I constantly find myself endlessly fascinating

 I make these promises that I don't mean and I'm slowly realizing what terrible a person I can be.

 I want to be alone so I can get lost in my own thoughts for that is where I am most happy

 I am indecisive and don't even know if I love or hate myself

 I want to smile for this has been the best Summer yet to everyone else, is the worst summer for all of the things I've done.

 I don't want to leave my bed yet I just want to go outside and climb a tree

 What makes me happy is the thing that makes everyone else hurt

 So just leave me alone and allow me to get lost in my head

Sunday Diary: Never Have I Felt More Like Tavi

Dear Blob,

Tavi Gevinson

Remember last week when I was frantically looking for writers yet scared to death about "taking my blog to pre-school"? I guess this is the next step. Now How Fitting isn't a blog by Ann Louise. It is a blog created by her. There is a difference. It is seriously the scariest thing ever to realize that your baby isn't really your baby anymore. Emma started Thursday and let me tell you, she did an amazing job but I just had to sit there from the sidelines of my blog and watch her post on the front of the blog. Pride for How Fitting burst inside of me yet I was scared of the future. At that moment right there and then, I have never felt more like my role model, Tavi Gevinson. This girl who was about my age began with a small blog and then just kind of slowly bloomed to the top and expanded into the best thing I have ever seen in my entire life, Rookie. Obviously, Tavi doesn't make this giant website with three articles a day alone! OK OK How Fitting has three people writing (and one editing and running) and Rookie has around sixty but you can understand my point. My biggest Tavi moment this week would have had to be when Emma (our newest member) sent me a draft of her latest post with the subject "My Thingy For The Blog :D"  so I could edit and publish her piece onto How Fitting

Honorary Tavi

. Wait a second. Not only am I a writer but I am en editor. I truly am Tavi Gevinson. Well here we go. Emma's post was published (you can read it here ) and Fiona will be starting by tomorrow which I can't lie. I think I am more excited than her about this. In the end, every blog needs a Tavi Gevinson and I guess that I can at least try and be as fabulous as she is. 

-Ann

Life Scouts

Since I am the lamest person in the entire world, I earned a single badge this week. 

Photography

When I was younger, I used to really be into taking pictures of

mostly stupid things but still pretty cool. God I am lame. 
Play List
This weeks playlist is mostly just made up of a combination of Sleeping With Sirens, Lights, and Pierce The Veil. I also added a single One Direction in honor of their insanely uncomfortable music video and put in "Garbage Truck" from Sex Bob-omg from my favorite movie, "Scott Pilgrim vs. The World" for I have seen it far too many times this week. 
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