sad fuzz

    LONG break. Longest one I've taken from here. Wow. Lots been happening, lots is in the works. I think I've been so busy with so many different publications the thought of focusing on my own was terrifying. It's still kinda terrifying. Anyways, while I was gone, this thing turned 3 years old and oh my that is so so weird. I mean when I first started How Fitting, I was 13 years old and in 7th grade and not only has my music taste and style changed, but just my overall personality. It's quite funny and embarrassing to look back at some of this stuff. As I said, I've been on some adventures lately and just wanted to check in on what I've been up to. I've missed this.

 Art in the Lower East side. I ended up seeing a show at ABC No Rio with a couple of friends and there's such an endless amount of murals in the area- also gave me a large bit of nostalgia from going on a date and walking from Astor to Soho to Greenwich back to Astor to Union Square and finally ending up in the 1st Ave Garden; this was back in October and the murals were just being painted (I distinctly remember that woman) and seeing it all up and finished was kind of surreal and beautiful.

 It happened. Somehow me and one of my close friends ended up at the 5th Ave Build a Bear. I've never felt more alive ever.

Dreams really do come true! Though my deep and ever growing hatred of Times Square is still very much alive, we ended up having to drop into the Guitar Center to pick up strings for my classical (that is still very much broken) and this fine establishment was right next door!

Frank!! This is kind of embarrassing and with me having panic attacks and my anxiety was on high the entire day, I couldn't really call this a gr8 night but overall good last hoorah of being emo (spoiler alert: it was just a phase).
Anyways, wait a sec for real posts to be coming out soon.

she spoke words that would melt in your hands

   Whoa. It's been quite awhile and as much as I'd hate to say it, with school, FIT just starting, and the complete jumble of my social life, it's been kind of hard to update. I've literally been just laying in bed watching SVU on Netflix and stressing out about really irrelevant situations I've created in my head that lead intricate lives of their own. At this point, I think I've got everything under control. Or at least I hope I do. Anyways, I've been looking a little like this:

these days. I buzzed off a large part of my hair off in hopes I could could look a little more queer and so far, that's been pretty good. Ever since I came out, I had this uncanny obsession with wanting to be that stereotypical lipstick lesbian due to the fear that people in fashion wouldn't take me seriously if I wanted to be more masc which I then realized was FUCKING RIDICULOUS because look how CUTE I look. I feel like tearing up a bit as to how adorable I am like wow good job Lou for being the gayest person you know. Oh right. I'm now calling myself Lou because that's name I feel I connect more to and all. Don't want to completely get into that. Maybe at a later date.
   Since How Fitting is obviously where only the most important matters are gone over, I feel as though it's ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY discuss  my current celebrity crushes because I'm a teenage girl thing and I guess it's scientific that I have those.

♥★Lou's Celebrity Crush Corner♥★

(I spent WAY more time than I ever should have creating something ironic) 

♥Top left: Poppy Harrold, ever since I saw them in Blue Sushi (AMAZING movie by the way, you've got to watch it), nothing has been the same)

♥Top right: Kat Blaque, ugh she's so intelligent and funny and gorgeous and oh my I love her.

♥Bottom left: Amandla Stenburg, honestly this one is so basic because who DOESN'T have a crush on her but I get so happy whenever I think of her.

♥Bottom right: Mandy Lee, my God. I was going through a breakup a month or so ago and Misterwives was my complete band during that time. God bless Mandy Lee. 

   I predict this year is the year How Fitting is flushed down the toilet (we've been hanging in there for quite awhile) now that this exists. Anyways, I've decided to stop taking myself so seriously and actually not pressure myself to create something well spoken and intelligent sounding every time because 9 out of 10 times, I just say stupid shit and spend a good fifteen minutes creating ironic collages of girls I have crushes on. Who knows? The next post on here may be some sort of feminist piece or just a continuation of my ramblings. It's really a 50/50 at this point. 

i’ll steal your honey like i stole your bike

*title from the best song of ALL TIME, "Summer Girls" by Lyte Funkie Ones*
Wow. I haven't done anything here for AWHILE. Before I get back on track, I have a couple $uper cool updates:
♥My hair is black again. Yeah I realize the exact thing I'd been working SO hard to get out is right back in again. I had blue, purple, and green hair for a hot second but it was absolutely terrible so it's back 2 black. I look a little something like this at the moment:

classic ann in class selfie

♥I SAW ALL TIME LOW!! The band I have been talking about since the blog has started I saw live about a week or so ago in New York. Sam and I waited ten hours (God bless her) in a line that just got fucked over by VIPs but I met Adam Elmakias and saw all the members walk by. I was going to write a post about it but nothing can do it justice. To sum it all up, the concert was this:

I couldn't stop sobbing through "6 Feet Under The Stars", "Damned If I Do Ya", "Stella", "Therapy", and "Lost In Stereo"- I immediately calmed at my all time least favorite song, "Missing You" 

just me and a friend

State Champs- I actually really like their music but they completely were horrible live due to encouraging rowdiness and making literally no comments towards the people trying to leave due to panic attacks. 

Jenna McDougall is a sweet baby angel live. End of story.

Seeing my favorite band was super overwhelming

Back view when Sam and I left the crowd to make an easier exit by the end

beginning of the day of Sam Slaughter and Ann Ambulance waiting in the eternal line

us outside ATL's tour bus (yes I did cry)

 ♥Wanted to share my Converse that I decorated with Valentine's decorations from last year when I was into making wild headbands (still love doing it- just haven't had the time). These shoes were kindly given to me for free from a marketer from the company

♥I finished BP- the program wasn't the greatest but sure looks good on college applications and I got free coffee so why not? I have re-applied because the girls are so sweet and I find out wether or not I got in in a few days!! 
♥I have new music up on Soundcloud along with my band, Phantomizing's first cover of "I Miss You" by Blink182 

I promise to be much better with posting this month (May was kind of wild)