Thursday, March 19, 2015

Jet Pack Blues

(OK I just noticed this but everything I'm wearing is from Forever21- I'm tacky and hate myself)

classic scene queen photograph

whoa didn't see you there- must've caught me mid dance (and without a neck??)

yung, broke, and fabulous 

(emo trash)

Saturday, March 14, 2015

stuck on a puzzle

It was rainy and cold and gross outside so naturally, taking pictures was a good thing. 
♥sweater: gift
♥jacket: thrift 
♥scarf: BP
♥hat: BP
♥boots: thrift

(I also made a lame playlist for rain days on Spotify)

Thursday, March 12, 2015

if you wanna leave, take good care, hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

I finally invested in a tripod!! Now I can spam everyone uncontrollably with pictures of me and my outfits!! It's a wild world!!
♥sweater: Target
♥skirt: H&M
♥tights: OASAP (they took forever to come and their "one size fits all" is hardly true- I'd recommend ordering from somewhere else- Hot Topic has cuter and cheaper ones!!)
♥sequin platforms: Buffalo Exchange 
♥Peter Pan collar: consignment

Monday, March 9, 2015

standing outside your figurative door

   This weekend, my mom and I went to Brooklyn to see my ultimate role model, Tavi Gevinson (for the 5th time), and hear her conversation with Anna Collins on modern day feminism. Starting off, Tavi is one of the funniest people ever along with such a great understanding of feminism and how to talk about it. Afterwards, she held a signing that I of course went to and finally bought my Rookie Yearbook 3 (I just need Yearbook 2 to complete my collection) along with a sheet of super cute stickers (I have developed a new obsession with covering everything in stickers as you can tell by my nintendo DS and guitar, Duckie)
(stickers from The Pulp Girls)

When I actually met Tavi, her immediate reaction was "You made me that jacket!" (I handmade a denim jacket with a bunch of drawn badges that I gave her at a Yearbook 3 party) Also, at the party, I showed her my celebrity mood board I'd made of her for my FIT class and when she said she absolutely loved it, my professor gave me bonus credit. She told me she was super proud of me and we took my worst picture with Tavi in existence (I also find it funny that in every picture I've taken with her, I have a different hair color)

she did write a cute message in my yearbook 

♥OK so I am sure most are aware of my love for Patty Walters and the band As It Is (he's the lead singer of) but since I joined their street team, I got invited to their meet up before their show in New York- Sam and I bought tickets a few weeks ago and I'm so excited to actually meet this band with only five other people in the room. If you haven't heard As It Is and are a fan of pop punk, I would definitely recommend listening to them.

♥ My favorite band ever, All Time Low, have just released their next single off Future Hearts and I'm not really sure how I feel about it- when I showed it to Sam, she mentioned it sounded like Dirty Work and even though some of my favorite songs are off that album, it also had "Heroes", "I Feel Like Dancing'", and "That Girl" so that album is pretty infamous and a repeat of that doesn't sound amazing. I'm mainly a little iffy on it because it sounds quite a lot like their previous single, "Somethings Gotta Give", which was an extremely fun song but listening to an entire album of just that is definitely not what I want. "Kids In The Dark" doesn't make me any less excited for Future Hearts but I really would hate it if All Time Low make a Dirty Work repeat.
(also the greatest response to the SGG music video was definitely this)

Thursday, March 5, 2015

What is "Chicklit"?

   My favorite novel is Forgive Me Leonard Peacock by Matthew Quick. I love this book and would recommend it to anyone from my mom to my best friend (who has read it and loved it). There's a side plot of romance but other than that, the book mainly focuses on Leonard Peacock, a boy deciding to commit suicide on his birthday. The cover looks like this:
This book was obviously written by a man and even though I picked it up in the Barnes and Noble teen section, it goes as a good read for people way older than adolescence and of all genders. By my standards, this is an amazing book. Another one of my favorites is The Disenchantments, a novel about a band going on their final tour over the summer after they graduate high school and how their manager and best friend realizes that he has to eventually grow up and let go of this. The cover looks like this:
   In a recent video by Kristina Horner, she discussed how people market their books by the cover and how certain novels are seen as "chicklit" and trashy because they were written for females and almost every time, by a female. I'm not going to defend every single novel here- in my opinion, The Perks Of Being a Wallflower was better than The Statistical Probability Of Love At First Sight regardless of the genders of the authors and covers. But there is truth to this; when you see Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock at a bookstore, the simple cover is seen as gender neutral whereas The Disenchantments' cover with a teenage girl shown is seen as "chicklit". Think about how you decide which book you're buying at the store or reading next: how do the covers make you feel? Because The Disenchantments has a young woman on the cover, its quality can be immediately debunked and thought of as "light" or a beach read even though the topics discussed in the novel turn rather heavy and majority of this book is quite a lot to take in. Without even wanting to be told, buyers can see this book as lower quality than something gender neutral and immediate assumptions are made that The Disenchantments will be an easy read for the cover is "girly". When novels are called "trashy" it is more times than not written by a woman and usually because the cover looks something along these lines:
and why is that? Why does the immediate thought of a "trashy" book come to mind when a cover with a woman or a female name appears. Yet novels with covers like these:
are seen as high quality writing? All six of these books are bestsellers yet the top three were seen as "chicklit" and on multiple review sights marked as "girly" and therefor lighter and not nearly as meaningful as the bottom three. Why does the appearance of a woman make a novel less important or unacceptable for a guy to read? More importantly, why does something as trivial as a name make people perceive a novel as "fluffy"? If you notice, the top three books are all by women whereas the bottom three all have male authors and just to fill in if you haven't read all of these, have the same intensity. Even though we see ourselves as independent human beings who don't need parents or teachers to tell us what is acceptable to read, we continue to have a blaring red light of what is "trash" and what isn't. Even if someone isn't screaming in your face, something like a female name can set off a siren. An amazing example of this is Joanne Rowling, author of one of the biggest series in the world, Harry Potter. When publishing The Sorcerer's Stone, she was advised to have the cover say her initials instead so boys would want to read it too. Obviously this worked and Harry Potter is a success for all genders but why isn't it mildly disturbing that the name Joanne would drive the male market down? The cover has a picture of a young boy on it and there is a male name as the title yet the fact that that wasn't enough it rather scary. I could barely read when my dad read me Harry Potter in second grade yet second grade me still perceived this series as a "boy's book" because the name JK Rowling sounded like a man- it's alarming that I had such an idea of what was within my invisible "boundaries" as a girl when I was 7. 
     The reason why this is so important not only to me but to so many others is that this doesn't just hurt women. These ideas of what is and isn't OK to read based on a "girly" cover or woman author is of course harming the writers of these novels but also men. Why is it unacceptable for a guy to read The Disenchantments on a train? This isn't to say men don't read books written by women- of course they do but why is it so much harder to have a boy read The Sorcerer's Stone if the name Joanne is on the cover? All in all, what I'm trying to get across here that the label "chicklit" is completely useless, gender neutral covers mean nothing, and you should read The Disenchantments. 

I'd also seriously recommend watching Kristina's video on this because it was my main inspiration for this post 

and also checking out author of 13 Little Blue Envelopes, Maureen Johnson's #coverflip project here

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

2 Years Down

   Exactly a year ago today, the first post for How Fitting went up. I looked like this

and every post went a little something like this. To sum it all up, I was a thirteen year old with a grand total of one friend and an uncanny amount of free time. I didn't really know where I was going with this blog (not that I exactly know at the moment) but I knew that I liked fashion and Tavi Gevinson and wanted people to like me because I had an insane amount of stress and problems with kids at school (most of them being my fault because contrary to popular belief, I was pretty horrible at that point in time). After a couple of incredibly embarrassing posts, I actually attracted people who wanted to read this stupid thing I created due to boredom. My interests began to develop from music to what I actually liked in fashion, and I realized what I wanted out of this thing I spent my time on. At first, I took a more zine approach and that worked and I liked it for quite awhile (more than a year) but a few months ago, after having been dissatisfied with the quality, I went for a more laid back style of blogging. I was becoming stressed and unhappy with what I was creating and blogging became more of a burden. The whole reason why How Fitting even exists is because I was bored and wanted to have fun and I decided the moment this is no longer fun, I either change what I'm doing or end this because I'm literally a fifteen year old girl sitting in my bedroom on my laptop writing pieces like this  while shitty pop punk plays. Though my main goal is to become a journalist in fashion, I can't take myself too seriously. Anyways, instead of focusing on horrible 7th grade Ann, I'd like to just have a quick montage of what How Fitting has become over the past year and all the super awesome things that have happened.

♥I have an internship! Though you guys probably already know this from here and here, I have rarely even talked about my love for BP Fashion Board. Not only are the discounts the greatest, I love the board. Every month, we learn something new about how to run such a giant business like Nordstrom. There are so many different cogs and wheels that go into it, and I'm fascinated with these people's stories. Also, as part of the program, I have to design a line and I think what I made is pretty cute (it's called "As If!" and is a modern day take on Clueless
♥Over the past year, I've worked with multiple really cool companies (here, here, here) and have already planned a collaboration with Moooh- which completely off the record has adorable clothing. 
♥I was nominated for a Liebster award by my friend Amelia Mad earlier in the year which was super exciting and it was so sweet of her. 

These things were about the highlights along with developing in quality, having Dean Dobbs say that my post on his song, "Consent" was a great review (and retweet it)
and also gaining a bunch of new lovely friends who like to read this thing I do. I'm really excited to start off this second year of How Fitting with more stupid things and pictures of me, Samantha, and John because that's really all this blog is. 
Love you from the bottom of my heart,

Sunday, February 15, 2015

we fell in love and now we're both alone

   This weekend, my friends, Sam, Madison, and I headed up to Philly to see Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce The Veil on their World Tour (along with Pvris and Mallory Knox opening) and it couldn't have been a better way to open up the concerts along the line for 2015. Before getting into the actual concert experience, I think some background on these two bands (mainly PTV) is important. I discovered Pierce The Veil in seventh grade when I was about thirteen after having heard of them through All Time Low (my still favorite band)'s co-headlining tour (fun fact: they actually came to New Jersey on my birthday but I never got to see them) and going through a "I only listen to music with 'meaning'" phase, this overly emotional band was great for me. Two years later, I continue to know the words to every one of their songs and keep up with the members (I'm even excited for the new album) but I listen to them in a different sense. Instead of making them my heroes and thinking that "I kissed the scars on her skin" is super inspirational, Pierce The Veil is seen as kind of a throwback type of thing. Just like how I couldn't let go of Taylor Swift for awhile, leaving this band seems weird. They were a huge part of me in seventh grade and even though thirteen year old Ann is no longer who I am today (thank God) I still feel that there are bits and pieces of myself that I want to keep and Pierce The Veil is not just the music to me at this point (this is beginning to sound pretentious) but more of a really great memory. They made me so happy at an extremely low point in my life and though I don't believe their music is amazing, they did gave the past version of myself so much that continues to give me something and that's where I find importance. As Sam said, "If you're taking Pierce The Veil seriously, you're doing it wrong." I can't say I have much experience with Sleeping With Sirens. I know their songs and have listened to bits and pieces of Feel along with all of their other albums but I never got so invested that they bring back anything. What I'm basically trying to sum up here I guess is that these were bands I'd been waiting years to see and there was almost some sort of closure once I'd watched them live. 
   Since we had regular general admission, this meant getting there early. All three of us were insane and showed up at 2:00 in the afternoon (the doors didn't open until 6:00 and the show wasn't due to start until an hour later). The first half an hour was fun- we talked and fan girled and looked out for scene kids and met a band that was advertising their tour. Sam pointed out that they sounded like Memphis May Fire (which they did) and when I said that wasn't exactly an insult but no one wants to be compared to Matty Mullins, the lead singer began going on about how all he needed was red hair and a cool beard and I added "and to be a complete douchebag". But then it got cold. And windy. And we still had four hours before we could even go inside. I started out in my "sheep coat" (as Madison called it), a hat, and scarf but as we realized coat check was extremely limited, Sam's parents came and took our stuff so we didn't end up in a pit with heavy clothing on. This meant I was standing outside during the coldest weekend of the year in a tank top, shorts, and tights with a small blanket wrapped around my shoulders. The next three hours were spent eating gold fish from the girl in front of us, pretending to kick each other and singing "kick kick kick me when I'm down" (it was that kind of boredom), and whining about how cold it was.
left to right: Sam, me, and Madison (pre blankets)
   We were finally let inside and ended up with awesome spots (the VIPs got barricade sadly) and so ready for Pvris to start up (we'd actually met Lyn's girlfriend before the show who was super nice). Though Sam and Madison had never listened to them, we all got extremely into it (especially at the point where everyone was jumping and I went so crazy my phone slipped out of my pocket and I had to find it on the floor). Their entire set was incredible and Lyn kept making smart comebacks whenever people shouted gross things about her body and was beautiful and talented and perfect. That's also when the pushing began and holy shit I knew the crowd for these shows were nasty but this was insane. It was literally just a wave in which you'd be thrown into the person in front of you to the point where you had no use of your arms and could barely breathe. The assholes behind this were a group of girls standing behind me screeching the lyrics (they claimed they only pushed to see Pvris and would leave right after but unsurprisingly stayed). Mallory Knox was up next and basically no one in the crowd had heard them (they were adorable and british) but god dammit they were so fucking good. I also loved that the lead singer said multiple times that everyone had to stop pushing (not that it did much though). 
Mallory Knox
   Sleeping With Sirens was the first to go out of the main bands and unexpectedly, Kellin was his major tool self but it was funny (he is gorgeous live at least) and Sam and I kept making comments on who let him have the mic. They started up with "Kick Me" which was hilarious and went onto "Trophy Father's Trophy Son", "Congratulations" (thank God there was no Matty Mullins in sight), "Here We Go", and "Low" (I don't remember the particular order in which they were played) before Kellin slowed it down with a cover of "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls (which is one of my favorites) and "Rodger Rabbit". "Go Go Go", "We Like It Loud", and "If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn" (Sam and I kept singing "they say that love is forever, your $80 is all that I need") were also played before ending with "If You Can't Hang". Highlights of the set were when a fan yelled "open your eyes!" and Kellin responded saying that he can't because since his valentine isn't here, he smoked a lot of pot before the show and when he basically ended the pushing telling everyone to stop because we were hurting all these pretty girls and it wasn't OK. Their set was slightly over the top with a lot of confetti, lights, and back boards playing graphics. It added to the show pretty nicely and though it was a little much, I'm not complaining. 

Though Kellin mainly took over, Jack had awesome stage presence

"when everythings made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am"
   Finally, it was onto Pierce The Veil (being honest, mainly everyone there was waiting to see them) the pushing had died down but we'd somehow ended up two rows back from where we started, pushed up against a side barrier. Ugh. The anticipation for this was insane after they'd set down a curtain with the Collide With the Sky woman that you could only see silhouettes of people through. At the end of every horrible techno song the venue played, there was about three seconds of waiting, hoping for them to begin. Finally, everything got quiet and dark and "May These Noises Startle You In Your Sleep Tonight" was blasting. After Sleeping With Sirens, my energy was low and I was extremely thirsty but right when that curtain dropped, I was full energy. "Hell Above" was their opening and holy shit it's so weird after two years of listening seeing this band live. Like these are real people. It was also the best because my favorite member, Tony Perry, was on my side of the crowd. I was screaming and jumping and pointing and doing about everything else to "Bulls In The Bronx" and"Disasterology" until the rest of the band left the stage and there was only Vic and an acoustic guitar. "I'm Low On Gas and You Need a Jacket" was the first PTV song I'd ever heard and my favorite so hearing these lyrics sung in front of me was one of the weirdest experiences ever because I know this was important to thirteen year old me. Not to say that I need to hold onto every single thing I ever liked from years ago but this song was the soundtrack to so many things. I wrote blog posts and diary entries with this song in the background. I loved this shit and it wasn't the song itself that got me in tears but that at one point in my life, this is what I felt was important and for some reason it didn't have the same power as it used to and that got me scared. The overall best part of the night was when Vic had a long pause before the bridge and the crowd immediately picked it up causing Vic to smile like a little kid. It was extraordinarily adorable. "A Match Into Water" was next and the three of us laughed at the twelve year old "inspiration" within the lyrics. We also danced to "Props and Mayhem" and "Hold On 'Till May" before pushing our way through the crowd during "Bulletproof Love" (we didn't want to have to deal with the insanity of "King For a Day") but as we got merch and stood back, I was able to take everything in. Pierce The Veil's set was gorgeous. There was a simple banner behind them with the band's name but later on, everything looked like a galaxy (not in a gross tumblr way). 

Ok I'm so proud of this picture
just call me Adam Elmakias

As I choke, try to wash you down with something strong
   There was blizzard outside once it was all over and we ended up drinking free Rockstar energy (I became the worst emo kid ever) and going to a TGI Friday's at 1:00 in the morning before going to our hotel and completely crashing. I'm not going to say that Pierce The Veil was some sort of magical experience or anything pretentious like that but seeing this band live added some sort of closure and I felt as though I owed it to myself (they're also surprisingly great live).