Impressed By Another Guitar Hero

Thursday 
♥Sweater: H&M
♥Skirt: thrift
♥Bird cage necklace: Pier One

I know I look mildly terrifying but my sweater paws were so cute.

Friday

♥Cardigan: hand-me-down (it has rips in the back which shows how awful I am)

♥Cat tank: Vivi

♥Leggings: thrift

$uper @ngst 

Books and Fairies and Things Happening

    It's been a weird week. So much has gone on and wow I didn't realize until I tried to write it all down and it became a scramble. I've been editing the novel I told you about a couple weeks ago and I find that funny because I've been comparing it to American Horror Story: Freak Show (without Evan Peters, freaks, a killer clown, and basically everything exempt for it being a circus in the 50s). No matter what I do, it can't be perfect and that is why I know I can't go into any publishing steps because that isn't what I want. But now that I say that, I don't even know what I want out of this book. It's just kind of something that is there and pretty and I like it. I guess I'm happy with it in a way. There are parts I feel like I'm somewhat of an OK fiction writer and I am proud (I could even say) of the introduction.
"My dad and I are moving again. A whole new town with new people who I probably won't be talking to and more opportunities for my dad to fuck everything up for us until we ditch this place and move again. I realize how harsh I sound when I say this but it's not as though my father has made things easy since the passing of my mother. Ah that faithful day that will continue to bring chills up my spine and cause me to dry heave no matter where I am. I remember it all too clearly.

Irene Nadler was not a mother to me- more of a ghost than anything. She would come home wrecked every night in the early hours of the morning and you could feel the drugs leaking off her. She'd act as though she was in a whole different world and stumble around our quaint house screeching profanities at the top of her lungs- triggering multiple complaints from our neighbors about the crazy lady next door. Sometimes she wouldn't even go out, she'd sit on the living room couch with a syringe in her hand and just go at it. Until one day, things were different. I don't know what exactly happened or why. Maybe she'd had a bad day or didn't notice how much she was taking because before I knew it, she was on the ground clutching her throat. I was only eight. I didn't know what was going on. I couldn't stop it. Instead of trying to help, I just sat there on one of the stools in the living room and watched in horror. I should've screamed or run to find someone but I was paralyzed and before I knew it, she was no longer heaving and lay motionless on the carpet. I don't remember much about what Irene looked like except for the blue nails and lips that will never leave my mind. When my dad is intoxicated (which is most of the time now), he'll look at me and weep about how much I resemble her though."  

   I could go into so many more things that have been going on but they make me sad to think about and though I did write about them, I think these thoughts and moments are rather personal and should be kept private. I did have a really banging fairy princess birthday party though and took some awesome shots with Vivi. 

oh and I got my first ever "hate comment" and I find it to be the funniest thing ever and I just need to share it with you:

Hello Daddy, Hello Mom, I'm Your Cherry Bomb

Monday
♥Top: Plato's Closet
♥Skirt: H&M
♥Pearls: Forever21

This photo is kind of horrible and I slightly like it like that.

Tuesday
♥Sweater: gift (I believe from American Eagle)
♥Leggings: thrift
♥Bird cage necklace: Pier One
♥Triforce Of Courage necklace: Etsy

(I realize how basic this outfit is- I just enjoy cozy sweaters at times and get too lazy to actually put creativity into it)

I'm kind of an awful picture taker but in a good way

Wednesday

♥Beatles tee: thrift

♥Jacket: my granddad 

♥Skirt: thrift

♥necklace: Forever21

Thursday
♥Tank: Forever21 basics
♥Skirt: H&M
♥Cardigan: consignment
♥Bird cage necklace: consignment
♥Peter Pan collar necklace: consignment

Friday
♥Sweater: Nordstrom BP
♥Leggings: thrift

Saturday

*My birthday!!!

♥Dress: Buffalo Exchange

My Favorite Products For Damaged Hair

   As most of you may know, I am guilty dying my hair since about fifth grade along withe excessively straightening and using other heat products towards it. Though I'm not willing to give up my dye and straight hair, I have been taking pretty good hair of my tresses since they have become rather disgusting (trust me, you don't want to touch my hair) and I am aware they will never be perfectly healthy, I'm trying to grow it out and not go bald so that means I've collected quite a treasure trove of different hair care products that help me keep the dye and straightening while still preserving health in my locks.

♥Not Your Mother's "Beat The Heat Shield Spray" 
(Target, Ulta, basically anywhere that sells hair products)
   One of my favorite hair product brands in the whole world is Not Your Mother's for their products aren't only for girls with straight or mildly curly hair but are extremely versatile- my hair is three textures so I mean it when I say a product is awesome. I just started using this whenever I straighten my hair along with three other products (shown later in the post) and it has worked better than most of the other sprays I have tried out. Unlike any other heat protectant, this shield spray gives a better hold on the straightening and keeps it in for much longer than usual. It also helps that it smells super good.

♥It's A Ten "Miracle Leave In"
(Target, salons, etc)
   Other than the shield spray, this is one of my all time favorite straightening (and heat in general) products. It's A Ten has an awesome texture that is more creamy than others and therefor provides a better and smoother straightening process. It also has keratin infused into it which is super good for your hair and is a much better alternative than spending hundreds of dollars on a keratin treatment. 

♥Garnier "Sleek and Shine Flat Iron Perfecter"
(Target, etc)
    Though I wasn't a huge fan of this spray at first, it does seem to do a pretty Ok job. When I use it, I'll first put my heat shield on first and then spray It's A Ten- this is probably because my hair is a stubborn bitch but I wouldn't recommend you using just this to straighten your hair. Though it isn't all that strong, this product does have a nice after shine that lasts about two days that is super nice and pretty. 

♥Not Your Mothers "Clean Freak Refreshing Dry Shampoo"
(Target, etc)
   Though I shower every day, I can't afford to wash my hair too so I usually end up only really cleaning my hair twice a week. Though I am super lucky my hair barely produces any oil, I still want it to be somewhat not so gross so this dry shampoo is a life saver. I've tried other products like this (such as Bastite which is a load of shit) and every other dry shampoo is all too flaky and sprays too much out whereas this doesn't leave any white spots nor does it flake and fall out whenever I touch my hair. 

♥Bed Head "Control Freak" conditioner
   Bed Head is one of my all time favorite brands for hair products and this shampoo is a lifesaver. It basically eliminates frizz when I wash it out and makes the straightening process quicker, and easier. One downside to it is that this conditioner has the worst smell ever but once you get past that, it's really lovely.

Breaking News! Alex Day Crawled Out Of His Hole To Blame Victims!

   Hello, this week's post is on a more negative note for I felt that I needed to discuss the recent events in which Alex Day has posted two new videos on his channel. I have written an insane amount of posts on the topic of sexual abuse within YouTubers and felt as though it was time to cut to the chase and make a video since it is not only quicker but (as incredibly powerful as writing is) I just felt you should see my face and recognize my tone on how NOT OK this is . I am sorry for how awful of a speaker I am and hope this will clear up that Alex's videos aren't apologies but ways to get his fan base back and though I am all for him becoming a better man and moving on, YouTube is no place for him to do so.
♥Holly's video
♥Master Blog on Alex's actions
♥The Geeky Blonde's video
♥My first ever Alex Day post
♥Charlie's post

Maybe I'm A Fake, Maybe You're To Blame

Sunday
*first day of FIT!
♥Betty Boop skirt: Vivi
♥Sweater: American Apparel (I realize how revolting they are- I bought it years ago!)
♥Peter Pan collar necklace: consignment

Thursday
♥Leather jacket: hand me down
♥Cami: Forever21 basics
♥Skirt: H&M (I had to put a million safety pins in the back because it's far too big!)
♥Bird Cage necklace: Pier One

Friday
♥Tank: Forever21 basics
♥Skirt: Target
♥Cardigan : thrift
♥bird cage necklace: pier one
♥Peter Pan collar necklace: consignment

Saturday
♥Sweater: Buffalo Exchange 
♥Leggings: thrift (they are sweater-y and the best things ever)

Kawaii af

September Favorites

Wow I guess I just totally forgot it was October or something like that but I never made a favorites list of September- welcome to How Fitting guys; in which Ann can't even remember what month it is.
♥Gossip Girl

I don't know if I've told you guys this but have the most embarrassing love for Gossip Girl. I don't even think it's the show that I have such a passion for- just the mystery of Gossip Girl and therefor I have watched five whole seasons (I have one more to go!) just to figure out who this person is. I believe this is getting a little unhealthy though- I began freaking out when all my friends looked up the identity of Gossip Girl and hung it over my head for the rest of the night.

♥Dan and Phil Games

  A couple weeks ago, YouTube sensations, Dan and Phil, made a gaming channel that has become one of my favorite gaming places on the internet- I especially like their Sims videos since I am quite the fan of that series.

♥As It Is

   OK I have been pretty obsessed with british band, As It Is, for months now but they recently got signed to one of my favorite record labels, Fearless Records, which is completely mental! Lead singer, Patty Walters, made a video here that I would completely recommend you watching. They are also the first UK band to even join the record label which is impressive enough in itself. 

♥Leather

   I was recently rummaging through my mom's closet when I found I full on treasure trove of leather jackets- they can make about any one of my outfits look badass and I feel an endless amount of power wearing leather.

♥Also this glorious video
It just addresses everything that is messed up about Sam Pepper's "social experiment" in the best way possible 

I'm sorry for how awful this post must have been but I did want to bring up the five things in here so I hope you have a happy October and maybe I won't forget what month it is next time.

You're Worse Than The Janoskians

   Judging by the somewhat unprofessional title, you can tell I'm not the biggest fan of You Tube's trashiest boy band, The Janoskians, but wait! Unlike some annoying fan girl, I have actual reasoning behind why this group is awful and you guessed it! It's because of the craze of them being called "feminists" and helping with anti-fat shaming. So really this post could be called "Why The Janoskians Aren't Feminists and In Fact Haven't Helped Anything Within The Body Positivity Section" but I don't think it has the same ring to it.
     As I said, I would hate The Janoskians regardless of wether or not they were known for promoting body positivity when they really didn't but that would be a rather awful and pointless post to write whereas when I keep it within this section I believe it stays more topical to How Fitting. In May of last year, the boy band released a music video for their latest single, "Real Girls Eat Cake", and that is where I believe it all began. Let's just talk about the lyrics for a second. The first verse basically objectifies woman calling them a "fucking dipshit" (because we all love that). The chorus goes onto saying some actually cool things such as "I don't need a girl to worry about her thigh gap" and "When you're with me you can be who you want" (we can just ignore how uncreative it was written and how bad the tune is). The second verse happens with more uncreative and stupid lyrics such as talking about how sexy their mom is and then the bridge comes on with just "real girls real girls real girls eat cake" (couldn't they have thought of anything better?) and it finally comes to a close.
    I am all for body positivity in the media- especially within people as famous as The Janoskians doing something but this song did none of that. If you pay attention to the girls in the actual music video, none of them are large or curvy- oh wait! There was one big girl but she was used as a comical piece of being the gross one no one wanted to be around. Dear Janoskians, if real girls eat cake then why do all the girls in your music video look like they don't eat anything? Before I begin getting comments on how I need to "lighten up" or I'm taking this too seriously, I would like to flat out say that in no way am I tearing apart this "band" for my personal enjoyment. I really do believe young men with a large group of teenage girls watching their every move need to promote things like this in a fair and right way. Why was it that every "sexy" girl portrayed in this video was a size zero model? If I don't need to worry about my thigh gap why couldn't you have cast young women without one?
    If you thought this video was bad, you haven't seen their recent gem, "That's What She Said". If the song isn't enough sad trash (again bad lyrics, no real meaning, just five guys being extraordinary stupid and untalented). I found the music video pretty fucking offensive. The video is set on a beach where the five guys are lifeguards and as expected, there is no shortage of hot, skinny, girls in bikinis but don't worry! There is one curvy girl being portrayed as this gross, fat, and crazy woman who is obsessed with one of the members so I mean they casted one larger person so it's all good right? Nope. How are these boys considered good role models when they are objectifying women and shaming them for their bodies? Why have they portrayed curvy girls as these funny and insane people while the skinny women get to be the love interests? The only thing they are doing is harm- this doesn't make me feel OK about my body.
    The the quintet doesn't stop with their music videos. The boys have been known to call their audience (who have payed hundreds of dollars to see these pieces of shit) "sluts" and comment on their bodies like they are discussing pieces of meet saying things such as "The girl in the front has such nice tits" and "Some of you girls at the meet and greet had the best asses." because it's just awesome to be objectified! They are also know for some really cool pranks such as pretending to jerk off in public, screaming profanities in public places around young children, and telling underage girls that their boobs are hot so what's not to love about them?
   To wrap this up, The Janoskians are really just assholes who have zero talent and I refuse to even consider them as part of the body positivity community.